After my chat today with Glenn over IM, I feel much more uplifted. We talked about finding a house as soon as he gets home and before we go on leave, and we discussed what other plans we are going to make when he returns and when we go on leave. I know that that time is still a long way away, but it made me realize even more that it is coming, no matter how much time we still have left between now and then.

It also made me realize that we are making the right decision about moving (at least I'm pretty sure). I also think that part of the reason I feel better today is because in the next few days I am moving into my parents house here, and I think that I will be busier and less stressed out, especially when I don't have a home that needs taking care of. I will also be living closer to my best friend. I have been a lot more impatient lately with my 2-year-old, and that's not something that I like. If anything, I think this move will be better for him than staying here with a stressed out, sad mom who looks around this house and sees reminders of her husband everywhere. Reminders like his computer which hasn't been touched and clothes and shoes that haven't been worn. While in the garage the other day, I noticed his bat bag that he brings to his softball games, and it was just a reminder that he wouldn't be using it for a long time.

Lately, I haven't been able to decide whether I am happy or sad about moving. I think that I am happy.

Back to packing.